Today as been a bittersweet day, bitter because you’re gone and sweet because you’re in a better place. Today feels like so many things and everything at once as I try to control my emotions and hold back the tears I can’t help but remember you today. I can’t help but remembering that day in the hospital, I can’t help but remembering saying goodbye. It was the hardest goodbye that I’ve ever had to do and I know that it won’t be my last for I know that as long as we live this life there is death there’s no way of escaping it.

So, as I sit today in all my raw emotions ignoring everybody’s phone call because I just don’t want to talk about nothing today. Today, I want to sit and feel which may or may not be healthy but that’s what I want a quiet day with no pity. I know I’ll get through it like I do every year and wait for these moments again next year because yes time heals just not completely.