Most of us live our lives thinking that we need someone to add to our lives but what if that person is you. Now, don’t get me wrong I don’t believe that we are meant to live this life alone. I just mean that you have to find and love you before you can truly love someone else. Loving and knowing yourself takes time just like it does to love and know someone else. Most of us spend our lives being who we think we should be or what would attract others to us. We do things out of habit or transform to what others want from us, especially a partner. But what makes you tik, what does your soul crave, what makes your spirit thrive?

That’s what I’m in search in this season of my life and for me it doesn’t have to be anything super deep. I also know that throughout life that thing or things may change. I’m not in search of a partner I’m in search of being my most authentic vulnerable self. I want to shed all the layers I picked up thorough out life and leave them off. I’m nearing fifty and realize that I have been so many people in this lifetime but mainly for who I thought I needed to be.

My life has not ever really been my own I was a mom at a young age before I even knew myself. Now I was good mom, because I knew what I desired from a mom and tried to be that. I was nowhere near perfect, but I tried. Let’s not forget being a girlfriend five times over and conformed to whatever that partner needed me to be but that always left me heartbroken. In between I have my spouts with being singleness and honestly that’s when I was my happiest because that always lead to me working on me. Your relationship with yourself is the most important relationship you’ll ever have. Now that I have found myself in that place again let’s see where this leads.